The reason for my unwillingness to live. - Ayumi

The website post discusses the author's fear of living a meaningless and unfulfilled life. They argue that in the 20th century, people are often trapped in repetitive and soulless jobs, numbed by consumer culture, and distracted by social media, leading to a sense of "existing" rather than truly living. The author questions how one can experience life authentically when the system itself is faulty and driven by power and money. They conclude that the real tragedy is not death, but living a life that feels hollow and controlled by societal expectations.